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in my life i’ve read a great many books and have learned a great many words. when it comes to the man i love, none of them are good enough. he is everything important and good in the world. i will never be able to understand how he sees fault in himself, because i see an endless list of perfections. he is smarter, kinder, more courageous and wonderful than he could ever know. this man charmed his way into my life and makes me smile each and every day. he supports me and loves me no matter what i say or how i act. he knows me and appreciates me for who i am, nothing more nothing less. i thank heaven every night for giving me the chance to spend my life with him.

Cole Marcus Belanger is the only person i trust and the only man i’ll ever love. everything i have and everything i am is in loving him. and it makes me better. he makes me better.

today i am scared.

i am scared i will never be good enough.

not for my parents, or my grandparents, or my friends.

i am scared i will never be good enough for me

i am scared i will never attend a graduate school.

i am scared i will never attain a PhD

i am scared i will never find my voice in my books.

and i am scared that i will never prove them wrong

i am scared i will never beat them.